Being who you are supposed to be...how do you do that? Dreaming my dream and wanting it always so badly. I have seen many posts about being who I am supposed to be. Taking the path that is mine. Failing. Getting up. Not giving up but then at the point where giving up is the only option in my head.
How do you keep going. How do you get it together enough to find that belief in yourself that you can get through it and fight your way through the battle. We all have our battles, fighting our way through cancer, divorce, job loss, losing a loved one and so many others.
Am I going to be able to keep fighting? Are you? Can I keep getting up in the morning and going and going just to do it again a thousand more times.
Who am I supposed to be? My dream is real. I want to be that person that makes a difference to someone...anyone.
Keeping it real...some thing that I have been trying to do lately is that. Trying to find a way to still be myself when nothing is about me anymore. Struggles are so great for everyone and I am sure you have a long list as well. Not everyone is going to have the same challenges in life and sometimes the things that bother us the most are things that do not show up in our photo's. Invisible to others but they continue to eat at our souls until we have resolved them. So this is me , on a day that was nice. It is easy to post a photo after we have done our hair and picked out the perfect clothes, but on this day I did none of the above. I don't live near the ocean. I live on a small street in a small town in Missouri. In a small house. So my outlook is starting to change. Keeping it real. Wearing my sweatpants when I want. Brushing my hair less, maybe even cleaning less. Keeping it all together on the inside is much easier for me when I am not trying to keep it all together on the outside. I love gardening and am going to make this the best season ever, all while making a mess, lol. I read once, that one of your goals should be that when you have people over to your house, they should leave feeling better about themselves, not feeling better about you. And that totally meant why do I spend 4 hours cleaning when I know someone is coming by for 5 minutes? I must be crazy. So here I go, off to work and all the while ...keeping it so real people will be wondering all day what the heck is wrong with me :) and if your feeling the same way.... take the challenge and start just being you :)