You will hear me repeating this over and over until you probably cannot take it anymore. lol Living in your beauty, and being happy is something that does not happen easily for all of us, and when it hit's you, when you can accept it and make it happen, it is amazing. I spent many years trying to be the way people thought i should be. I worried every day that I was the person I should be in their eyes. I forgot who I was, and like magic...BOOM. I started being me, now I have to give props to Tiger, and his school of blooming. He has no idea I have a blog and has no idea that I am a fan, but check him out on the links below, if you feel like you are in a place that makes no sense anymore.
It is time to be you, and for me, the feeling cannot be explained. I have literally gone from spending most of my days worried about others being angry or not liking who I am. Spending time doing things I did not want to do, wearing what I did not like to being me. My own brand of happiness. Some might say it is called letting your hair down, I stopped doing everything that was expected of me and do what I want to do every moment. Because that is all we really have, this moment right now.
So previously, I had used some of the scenario's that were presented to me by Tigmonk. He says to me, the world is my playground. OK. That while I am peeling potatoes, that is all that is really happening, I am just peeling potatoes. Now, this story related to me so much. I cannot do anything usually without thinking about my entire life and who is upset with me while I do it. Does this sound like you? If it does, it is time to let it go and give it a change. The old me, before about 2 weeks ago, did everything I was supposed to do. I would never want anyone to judge me, or ask why I am doing what I am doing. The new me, still cares about all of humanity and I care about people being happy and healthy. But I no longer worry about one single thing while I peel those potatoes. I spend a lot more time dancing, and hugging my dog. I make every moment like my last moment.
Sound strange? The freedom is amazing and you get to enjoy being you. Who are you? Are you like me, a girl that really just wants to braid her hair, throw on some old boots and ride a horse? :) Not kidding. Try it. So message to self: Live in the beauty that you already are, get it? Spend every moment celebrating yourself over and over. Be you and be happy. Make your home a place you love, and make it comfortable and happy for you and your family. Put all of those worries away. Enjoy your day and enjoy being you. Always.
Keeping it real...some thing that I have been trying to do lately is that. Trying to find a way to still be myself when nothing is about me anymore. Struggles are so great for everyone and I am sure you have a long list as well. Not everyone is going to have the same challenges in life and sometimes the things that bother us the most are things that do not show up in our photo's. Invisible to others but they continue to eat at our souls until we have resolved them. So this is me , on a day that was nice. It is easy to post a photo after we have done our hair and picked out the perfect clothes, but on this day I did none of the above. I don't live near the ocean. I live on a small street in a small town in Missouri. In a small house. So my outlook is starting to change. Keeping it real. Wearing my sweatpants when I want. Brushing my hair less, maybe even cleaning less. Keeping it all together on the inside is much easier for me when I am not trying to keep it all together on the outside. I love gardening and am going to make this the best season ever, all while making a mess, lol. I read once, that one of your goals should be that when you have people over to your house, they should leave feeling better about themselves, not feeling better about you. And that totally meant why do I spend 4 hours cleaning when I know someone is coming by for 5 minutes? I must be crazy. So here I go, off to work and all the while ...keeping it so real people will be wondering all day what the heck is wrong with me :) and if your feeling the same way.... take the challenge and start just being you :)